I've been ready to come out to my parents for a while. I tried calling them, but I just couldn't say it. Last night I spent a good half hour writing something to explain to my parents what I was feeling and all that. It took me 5 minutes to press that send button, but I did it.

My mom still loves me! Apparently my dad has known longer than I have.. way to take the drama out of it!

Anyway, I'm still kinda shocked right now - relieved, but still in shock. What's the next step?

I would make my self as comfortable as possible and go out into the world to see as much as I could with the people I love.

Hey.

It's been so long since I posted last! I've been up and down a lot lately - I guess it's just stress + seasonal defective junk. Despite all that, my boyfriend has been keeping me happy even though he's 1000 miles away and we've never met in person! lol. We've been together for 5 months now - they've been my 5 happiest. I can't wait to meet him!

I'm soooo bored. Now I have craploads of homework to do because I put it off - I'm so glad I have today off school.

Today was a good day. I had an inspiring lesson, had fun with friends, went to GLOW, and even got some homework done. I can't wait until my paper, due Friday, is done. I'm doing it all day tomorrow. It feels so good to feel good! lol I was a bit giggly today.

Today I saw two bunnies. I named one Snickerdoodle, and I named the other Harrison.

I'm back at school now - my vacation was nice and relaxing, but coming back made me realize just how much I actually like it here. Room 326 really feels like home to me.

so, I did it - here's my new year's resolutions

-Don't procrastinate

-Be organized

-Eat well

-Come out to my parents

-Dedicate myself to cello more

so far, I've fucked up each and every one of these, but term II starts tomorrow. That sounds like a good time to start.

Right now I'm kinda stressed because I think the LGBT conference and this Suzuki thing are both happening on the same weekend - I'm kinda committed to both, but I paid way more for the Suzuki thing, but I wanna go to the LGBT thing way more.

Here's to a happy new year!

On Friday I woke up at 8 00 (because I can't figure out how to turn off the radio alarm! I was feeling shivery and shaky - I knew what was coming. After throwing up and, erm, expelling liquids in other uncomfortable ways for a few hours, I got way dehydrated. I couldn't hold any fluids down. So I went to the hospital and I'm just starting to feel back to normal today. This is the same thing that happened to me last March. Thank God I got sick at home where I can be cared for and not at school.

anywho, It's snowy now, which is nice because yesterday it rained and got rid of what little snow was on the ground.

I think my family is a bit annoyed that I don't want anything for Christmas, but I don't really want many material things. All I want is to see my boyfriend

I still haven't came out to my parents yet - I want to do that before I go back to school.

I'm good and hungry now - so glad to not be sick any more.

I did christmassy things today to get me in the mood.

I made cookies, sightread some christmas music on the piano, and put up the tree with my parents - that always gets my alergies going because the thing is super dusty - I wish we had a real tree.

I haven't been doing much homework yet - gotta get on that!

I'm home - it's nice.

I don't feel like doing anything, but I'm so bored! Today I drank some almond extract just for fun. It went down surprisingly smooth. The mint extract was nasty.

Saw "I Am Legend" today in IMAX. I'm not sure if the $11 was worth it, but I had fun.

The only thing I want is my boyfriend. Nothing else. Who the hell put us so far apart?!