The moste sekret confessions of a Bunny

I'm out

Tue, 19 Feb 2008 17:16:50 GMT

I've been ready to come out to my parents for a while. I tried calling them, but I just couldn't say it. Last night I spent a good half hour writing something to explain to my parents what I was feeling and all that. It took me 5 minutes to press that send button, but I did it.

My mom still loves me! Apparently my dad has known longer than I have.. way to take the drama out of it!

Anyway, I'm still kinda shocked right now - relieved, but still in shock. What's the next step?

Writer's Block: One Day to Live

Mon, 18 Feb 2008 05:16:14 GMT

What would you do if you had one day left to live?

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I would make my self as comfortable as possible and go out into the world to see as much as I could with the people I love.

Feb 7 - - 08

Fri, 08 Feb 2008 02:23:11 GMT

Hey.

It's been so long since I posted last! I've been up and down a lot lately - I guess it's just stress + seasonal defective junk. Despite all that, my boyfriend has been keeping me happy even though he's 1000 miles away and we've never met in person! lol. We've been together for 5 months now - they've been my 5 happiest. I can't wait to meet him!

Jan 21 08

Mon, 21 Jan 2008 22:00:38 GMT

I'm soooo bored. Now I have craploads of homework to do because I put it off - I'm so glad I have today off school.

January 16, 08

Thu, 17 Jan 2008 06:19:42 GMT

Today was a good day. I had an inspiring lesson, had fun with friends, went to GLOW, and even got some homework done. I can't wait until my paper, due Friday, is done. I'm doing it all day tomorrow. It feels so good to feel good! lol I was a bit giggly today.

January 11, 2008 (day of the bunnies)

Fri, 11 Jan 2008 22:35:15 GMT

Today I saw two bunnies. I named one Snickerdoodle, and I named the other Harrison.

Back to school again

Sun, 06 Jan 2008 23:27:01 GMT

I'm back at school now - my vacation was nice and relaxing, but coming back made me realize just how much I actually like it here. Room 326 really feels like home to me.

so, I did it - here's my new year's resolutions

-Don't procrastinate

-Be organized

-Eat well

-Come out to my parents

-Dedicate myself to cello more

so far, I've fucked up each and every one of these, but term II starts tomorrow. That sounds like a good time to start.

Right now I'm kinda stressed because I think the LGBT conference and this Suzuki thing are both happening on the same weekend - I'm kinda committed to both, but I paid way more for the Suzuki thing, but I wanna go to the LGBT thing way more.

Here's to a happy new year!

Christmas Eve Eve

Sun, 23 Dec 2007 18:49:48 GMT

On Friday I woke up at 8 00 (because I can't figure out how to turn off the radio alarm! I was feeling shivery and shaky - I knew what was coming. After throwing up and, erm, expelling liquids in other uncomfortable ways for a few hours, I got way dehydrated. I couldn't hold any fluids down. So I went to the hospital and I'm just starting to feel back to normal today. This is the same thing that happened to me last March. Thank God I got sick at home where I can be cared for and not at school.

anywho, It's snowy now, which is nice because yesterday it rained and got rid of what little snow was on the ground.

I think my family is a bit annoyed that I don't want anything for Christmas, but I don't really want many material things. All I want is to see my boyfriend

I still haven't came out to my parents yet - I want to do that before I go back to school.

I'm good and hungry now - so glad to not be sick any more.

It's beginning to look a lot like Christmas

Wed, 19 Dec 2007 05:31:59 GMT

I did christmassy things today to get me in the mood.

I made cookies, sightread some christmas music on the piano, and put up the tree with my parents - that always gets my alergies going because the thing is super dusty - I wish we had a real tree.

I haven't been doing much homework yet - gotta get on that!

Dec. 15

Sat, 15 Dec 2007 07:27:53 GMT

I'm home - it's nice.

I don't feel like doing anything, but I'm so bored! Today I drank some almond extract just for fun. It went down surprisingly smooth. The mint extract was nasty.

Saw "I Am Legend" today in IMAX. I'm not sure if the $11 was worth it, but I had fun.

The only thing I want is my boyfriend. Nothing else. Who the hell put us so far apart?!

One Final Left!

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 05:31:12 GMT

My Final today was pretty easy. I screwed up the last essay question, but I think I did alright.

I helped out at the GLOW craft sale today. It was tons of fun!

I watched the ALF Christmas special with some dorm people - mostly RLAs. We mocked it relentlessly despite it being one of the Hall Director's favorites.

I can't wait to go home!

Finals Week

Mon, 10 Dec 2007 20:25:54 GMT

I passed my first final! BKS II that is, Basic Keyboard Skills II.

Tomorrow I have my Freshman Studies final. It's a sort of literature review class - pretty cool. My last final is on Wednesday - Music Theory. I need to be checked out of my room 24 hours after my last final is over, which means I need to clean the place up a bit. quite a bit.

I've been feeling a bit lonely lately... sometimes I don't think I have close friends here. On Saturday I didn't do much, besides talk to people online and do an hour of practicing.

Yesterday I went to a cello party! We made tons of tasty food at our teacher's house. It was so fun!

End of Week 10

Sat, 08 Dec 2007 06:47:57 GMT

Term 1 is over - time for finals week

Today's orchestra concert went really well. It's our third concert this year. We played the Beethoven Choral Fantasy and {Poulenc's Gloria - both with choir.

I'm so ready for extra sleep now!

I still haven't found my phone...

I'm getting a C in freshman studies! nooo!

end of 10th week

Fri, 07 Dec 2007 03:12:06 GMT

I haven't seen my phone since Friday - it's so annoying! If anyone knows where it is, please let me know. I bought a $10 calling card so I can call my dad on his birthday today. I sure hope I find my phone!

I went to a cool indie coffee shop today - $2 for 12 ounces of delicious coffee is a great price compared to some others.

I'm still not practicing enough or well enough - I hope that winter break will put a new perspective on my cello playing.

I miss my boyfriend! It sucks not seeing him in person, but I still love him, and one day we'll meet and it will be cute.

I'm going to the Midwest Bisexual Lesbian Gay and Transgender Collegiate Conference this February!

Tuesday - week 10/12, term 1/3

Tue, 04 Dec 2007 19:53:27 GMT

I've been doing homework and putting off my practicing - How exciting! Next week is finals week - I'll be done with it all on Wednesday, and then I'm home free - literally.

Hey again!

Sun, 02 Dec 2007 18:08:12 GMT

I'm not dead yet!

It's only been two months since the last post, come on! lol Well, lots of shit has happened. It snowed a whole lot yesterday, The CPIU yelled at me for having a younger boyfriend - He's only 7 months younger! I've done lots of homework, adjusted to school, practiced a lot too. I plan on doing some more frequent posting from now on.

I'm finally done with the classroom portion of my Suzuki training - just 15 hours of observations left! and also some written work...

I turned 18! yay for sex and voting! (neither of which I've done yet)

I've told the vast majority of my friends that I'm Bi - they all like me just the same. I'm planning on telling my parents at some point.

hmm, I'm sure I'll think of something later on, and I'll include it.

Oct. 3rd, 07

Thu, 04 Oct 2007 05:20:02 GMT

It's getting busy, and I'm struggling to stay organized.

I've got lots of classes and a bunch of homework to go along with that! I'm having trouble managing my time - thank god for my PDA! I've gotta keep practicing and I'd really like to go to GLOW club some time - Gay Lesbian Or Whatever.

Tomorrow isn't as busy. I have some good time to catch up on homework then.

October 2nd, 07

Tue, 02 Oct 2007 15:27:25 GMT

Good morning!

I thought I'd post before my bedtime so I could have something worth reading - but I have too much homework right now! I got back from the cello retreat tired, so I didn't eat dinner that night, or the next day until lunch! 24 hours without food... not much fun at all. Orchestra rehearsal went well yesterday. I went to a CMENC (collegiate music educators national conference) meeting. It's a music education club. I thought it would make stuff a lot more clear, but they gave out way too much information on the first day! I got so stressed out!

For homework, I need to finalize my rough draft of my Kafka paper. It's a short one, but my entire thesis pretty much just got torn apart! gah! I also have some theory reading and a worksheet. I need to practice and go to orch. rehearsal tonight, and... oh yeah! read the entire "Republic" by plato for class at 11:10! oh shit.

I'm probably going to mess around until lunch and then do as much work as I can before 4:00 when I go teach some little kids with the "string project" group. that should be lots of fun!

BJ

Sat, 29 Sep 2007 05:52:25 GMT

Today I'm writing from the university's Door County campus - Bjorklunden! I'm here on a retreat with the cello studio. It's really pretty here - lake Michigan is 100ft away from the front door. I'm having lots of fun meeting everyone! I just came back from a campfire and before that we did a bit of cello playing. I'm sure tomorrow will be interesting!

26 and 27 Sep '07

Fri, 28 Sep 2007 04:58:23 GMT

I keep missing out on posting! well, it's gonna be dead pretty soon, but at least I have a log of the NOT EXITING PARTS! oh jeez.

well, yesterday I met the cello studio they're all super cool and I can't wait to meet them on the retreat this weekend. Today I had my first orch. rehearsal and it's super hard. I'm gonna have to put in a lot of work this year! I can't wait until I get good! lol

I need to stop posting late at night when I'm tired and apathetic!

Monday/Tuesday 24th & 25th of September '07

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 04:57:00 GMT

Well, I missed another day, huh?

Monday I had my first class it was pretty cool. Nothing special

Today I did some confusing class registration, bought my books (soo expensive!) and signed up for GLOW club - Gay Lesbian or Whatever.

Tomorrow classes start for real! I'm so excited and nervous!

Mon, 24 Sep 2007 05:47:41 GMT

Ah! I missed a day! thus begins the steady decline of my LJ... lol

*sorry this isn't detailed - I just lost every thing I wrote!*

Saturday I had auditions that went well in general - I wasn't very happy with my cello audition.

My bank is messed up right now, preventing me from buying books!

Last night, there was this thing where the RAs asked us questions and we had to respond. One question was "are you comfortable around people with a different sexual preference?" Everybody was cool with it! I almost cried!

Today I stayed in bed until almost noon. I was hungry!

I finally did my homework for tomorrow - lol.

I hope I can make some good friends. I already see groups forming and that scares me. I don't know anybody particularly well yet...

First Friday

Sat, 22 Sep 2007 04:16:44 GMT

Today was a bit more eventful than yesterday. I got up and took a music theory placement exam at 8:30 am. It was familiar, but I did not ace it! after that I had some freetime, so I practiced a bit. Next there was a music education seminar that I went to. All the info was pretty self explanatory. Let's see... I'm working on getting a campus job in the library. I should get that application in ASAP - I need a job! Lunch was normal today. I had an advisory meeting with my advisory - he's really cool. It looks like I'm on the right track. For my major - music education. I bought the cello book that I don't have ordered yet - I'm going to practice out of it tomorrow.

After dinner we had this "Play fair" thing. We played a bunch of "get to know you" games. It was sooo lame but the kind of lame where everybody goes along with it just because it's so dumb. Anyway, we had tons of fun. Afterwards, there was free food and karaoke at the student union. I talked to a friend from my old youth orchestra there - it's nice to see a familiar face.

After that I came back to the dorm and talked with some RLAs for a while they're pretty cool. I came upstairs to find some strange guy sleeping on the floor. He's a roommate's friend's friend who doesn't even go here... what the hell? Bah. It better just be for one night, and I'm not taking any shit about my teddy bear should the subject come up!

First full day

Fri, 21 Sep 2007 05:14:18 GMT

I slept well today!

I got up to go to a long sorta boring opening ceremony. Then had lunch with my faculty advisor - the orchestra director. The whole string staff is way cool. I got some job stuff set up today too - now to just find the actual campus job! My parents finally left today - I was sad to see them go, but it's time. Tonight we saw some illusionists. They were ok - a bit week but entertaining. I wasn't too impressed. Now it's time for bed - I have placement exams in the morning.

Moving Day

Thu, 20 Sep 2007 04:20:04 GMT

I'm here and happy!

My room is nice and big - with a sink! My roommate smokes pot, but the room smells like incense, so that's cool. At the moment I'm a bit freaked out about scheduling my auditions and tests and junk - too much stress right now, but it's good stress. I'm meeting some cool people too!

After the four hour car ride (dumb traffic!) The RA's helped me unload the car and I set up my room to just about the way it'll finally be. It took several hours to set up the wireless router, but obviously it's working now! After dinner and a welcome concert (I fell asleep because I didn't get much last night) we had a dorm scavenger hunt - we went around to find some RA's rooms and then had ice cream! yummy rainbow sherbet! And here I am - sitting on my bed.

Hope my roommate doesn't mind my teddy bear - I put up with the drugs...

anyway, It's time for bed soon. Busy day tomorrow!